Hello, I have the fortunate spot of number 1. I am no.1 in the family, no.1 in looks and no.1 on this blog. You know it. I win. But you can be second, just because I like ya. So, here's my news. The trough in our house proved to be a catalyst for creative ideas. Finally, we settled on the perfect idea...a fish tank. So we promptly all went to wal-mart and purchased .15 fish. We started with 12. Now we have 8. Go figure. So this is a lovely idea, and I think that it will help to keep us close. Another thing about my life is I have a special spot. I always read about them in books, and people have told me of their special spots, but I, alas, have not had one to call my own. Until now. It is a beautiful spot on old main hill, Iwill describe it to you dear sister, but I don't expect you to know it. Over by the institute and new on-campus housing, there is a little look out balcony that is secluded, yet it looks over all of Logan valley and Logan canyon (and the temple is so beautiful there at dusk!) on one side, and the shrouded, woody side of old main hill on the other. Oh, it is my own little corner of heaven. So I like to go there everyday armed with my utah state sweatshirt blanket, ipod, homework, scriptures, journal, and a steamy cup of hot chocolate (because it's cold here) and do my work. It is sublime, I actually look forward to doing my homework. Also, I have decided that I am a selfish girl. I love my friends deeply, but I get jealous when I don't get to spend enough time with them or when other people are. Why is that? I know they still love me, but my secret heart of hearts sends deep crippling black doubt into my body that I am not loved as much as I think I aught to be. Oh sister, help me and my imperfections, for I know not why I am so weird! Does this ever happen to you?